Hati terkesan

Assalamualaikum and selamat pukul 10.45 malam.

Menulis bukan untuk merungut tetapi untuk meluahkan rasa.
Rasa yang tak dapat diucap dan diungkap dengan percakapan.
Mana mungkin aku hilang rasa walau pernah diluka.
Luka pasti tercalit dan terpalit.
Namun, parutnya masih berbekas.

Takut, trauma, terkesan masih lagi ada.
Kadang terlampau berhati hati pun masih terluka.
Biar bersederhana, biar bersahaja.
Aku sampai sudah lelah dengan semua.

Hati ingin disayangi, dikasihi, dicintai, diminati, disukai,
namun seperti aku pernah katakan dulu,
hatiku ini milik Dia, biarlah Dia berikan kepada pemilik yang sebetulnya.

Usaha itu perlu, mana tahu mungkin akan terjumpa,
tapi selagi belum terjumpa, aku bersabar dan terus bersabar.
Niat nak settle down tu mesti ada,
tunggu bila ditentukanNya saja.

Yang pasti, dalam tahun ini, tersimpan segala niat dan matlamat.
Berharap agar dipermudahkanNya.
Merancang adalah pilihan, tapi adalah ketentuanNya.

p.s Moga aku kuat dan tabah dan sabar dan berhenti berharap.

Hiding My Heart Away..

Assalamualaikum and morning Thursday...

6 weeks been at Dungun, Terengganu and guess what, I can understand little bit their slang...
And later I hope will understand everyyything.....Learning process yaaaa..

Okay, by this week, I just found one song by Adele "Hiding My Heart Away"..
I just don't know why the song was just close to me...
Everytime I hear the song, I feel just like to cry and cry and cry..
Maybe the lyric make me into the song...

Okay, just to be honest, I am hiding my heart away from that "person"..
Let we call him, Mr. R.....

I am scared enough to express my feeling to him cause of afraid for my past time...
I am scared to face something that I wouldn't expect to...
2 years ago, everything change me everything..
I am no longer involved in love since the last heart broke really make me down and little depressed...
I become a girl that afraid to fall in love...
But, I am now a girl that strong enough to live without a man to be love...

Yeah, sometimes I felt little jelly with happycouple around me...
Hoping that their relationship will become stronger and lastly marry to each other...
But, I motivate myself as my Mr.Right does not want to show himself...
Okay Mr.R I am waiting for you daily, weekly, and so on...
So come to me yerrrr and make me yours please... :DDD
I promise to myself with the doa that I will always love you and become a better person...

p/s: okay, i love to talk out of topic, so sorry yaaa...love the life before one love you..
     
Class at 8 am tomorrow morning and I'm not sleep yet..goshhhh...nite..Assalamualaikum